my diary ~ no more CD for me

Hey you - you haven't let me down! Nor anyone else on here you muppet! ;):rolleyes:

So you slipped up... you're only human! :eek: :rolleyes:

The dress will be there for another time (and there will be other times)... so be kind to yourself... and no.. you can't restart this day but you can do damage limitation and stop cheating now and get right back on track and tomorrow is a fresh day:D

And for petes sake develop some taste buds! Pease pudding! YERK!!!!!!:p :eek:
 
I know you're right and I can't estart the day but can stop doing any more damage to myself.

I think I've been pretending to myself that everything is fine and things haven't been getting to me too much. today it just stopped working nad I did emotional eating rather than hunger. I have to find another outlet for my emotions rather than stuffing my face.

Any sugestions?
 
oh hun ((((hugs)))))

I'm not really sure I've got a grasp of what you're doing tomorrow now, but don't feel you've let yourself or anyone else down because of a blip. Your human, you've had a bluddy awful day by the sounds of it, and it was a blip.

Tomorrow's a brand new day :)

Take care

Kitty xxx
 
Dont be silly hun!! The only way you would be letting yourself down is if you didnt stop eating etc, which you did!! You will be straight back on SS, drink gallons of water and you'll be fine....anything you have put on from eating today will come straight back off in a couple of days....

As for the dress? Save it for a really really special night out...I bet you will look fantastic in it and you deserve to have the best night while you are wearing it and feeling a million dollars!
 
yeah, take up boxing! seriously - I used to go to boxaerobics (years ago) and it worked for me emotionally!

otherwise... I dunno... do stuff to keep yourself busy and NOT near food or anything to do with food... clean your bathroom, wash down woodwork... umm.. polish everything.. take someone elses dog out for a walk if you don't have one... ANYTHING to stop you from turning to food for comfort.

I have always been a comfort eater, but, and I don't know why, since starting on this I haven't! I can't explain it... food has ALWAYS been my comfort, my reward, my bribe,,, now it isn't (at the moment). I don't have any easy answers hun, it has to come from you and from within you... I KNOW you have fab inner strength ... you need to keep your eye on the ball, don't allow ANYONE else to affect your choices in life... after all, it's your life, your body and your mouth... if you choose to pig out who suffers? none of the rotten beggars who let you down eh? so... next time they let you down do your level best not to turn to food... sing something, put on loud music, take it out on your housework... blitz a room... strip the bed and remake it... ANYTHING to just keep yourself away from that slippery slope...

Not sure if that helps or not, but I hope it does (((((hugs))))))
 
KittyB said:
I'm not really sure I've got a grasp of what you're doing tomorrow now
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sorry I know I hven't explaine any of it very well at all, but now instead of going into newcastle with my friend I'm going to be going to the local pub just around the corner and will look ridiculous all dressed up. Her other friend will be there and it's karaoke night :eek: so they will both be gtting up to sing and will both be getting very drunk. her other friend always ignores me and I think is jealous and doesn't want me to take her friend away from her (stupid cow how old is she?) Anyway, she is the one that put alcohol in my drink last time I went out, not really keen on her. Suppose I'm glad it's just round the corner so I can just walk home when I get sick of them.

I'm going to go out on friday night somewhere else (not as good as newcastle) and will wear the dress then so it's not wasted. But I wouldnt be surprised if that gets cancelled now too. But it's a good job I wont be drinking because I'll have to pick my kids up rom their dads at 6am saturday morning.

I just wanted to feel good about myself for one night. i was looking forward to it, and other things which are now not happening either. Plus when mr mechanic came we ended up in bed (I know I know that was sooo bad) and now I feel really really bad about that. I can't believe I let myself get talked into it. It really made me realise just how bad it was when he said he loved it that I liked him so much. Thats all I am, an ego boost, a mug, an idiot.

Thankyou all for your responses I really appreciate them :)
 
Oh bless you, you sound like you feel bad, but this blip will pass.
And that's what it is-a blip.
Funny our parallel lives continue because I was just coming on here to post about a very bad eating day.
Also down to emotions that I'm trying to repress I think.
The dress will still look beautiful on you, you're still doing brilliantly and can get straight back on track. Even writing your emotions down here honestly is a good way of not denying them. You can still respond to Mr Mechanic emotionally even though you know he's bad for you. That makes you human not daft.
Take care
Kate x
 
kati said:
...now I feel really really bad about that. I can't believe I let myself get talked into it. It really made me realise just how bad it was when he said he loved it that I liked him so much. Thats all I am, an ego boost, a mug, an idiot. :)
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No sweetheart, you are a loving warm compassionate woman with a mega soft spot for a scumbag... it only makes you as human as the rest of us. Please don't allow him to make you feel bad about yourself. You are lovely and he is an ar*e not to appreciate you for who you are instead of how good you make him feel! Most of us have been there, done that and had all the regrets after too! So please, don't let it get you down. (((hugs)))
 
Your not a mug or an idiot girl. So you fell into a web of deceit but thats something I can honestly say that I have done loads of time. And I aint got a china handle you g if you catch my meaning. Being trusting is actually good reflection on you. Its a really nice quality to have and its one I also have but it does mean that occasionally you get your fingers burned.:( You walk with your head held high girl because your worth more than this and its his loss!!!

Ps. Sorry for butting in on your diary at one of the more personal moments
 
thankyou both for your comments they're really nice.

Claire please don' apologise for butting in, you're not at all I like that people take the time to write anything in my diary especially when it is helpful to remind me of how I should be looking at things instead of how I actually do.
 
Hey darling!!!!!

As others have said - you are only human - so you ate when people let you down - so what?

Move on, get back on the wagon and refuse to let ANYONE take skinniness away from you!

People will always disappoint you, hun - it's horrid but true. I broke off a friendship last NYE when my mate blew me out for the night cos she'd had a better offer and I was boring when I wasn't drunk!!!!!!! I have never spoken more than 10 words to her since!!!!

If people pizz you off, find new friends who treat you with respect.

Oh and re Mr M - he's a clever boy, hey - knows exactly what to say to get his wicked way.

BUT darling - never forget - at the end of the day - a sh*g is a sh*g.

You got some loving - great - now move on and find someone worthy of your affection.

Thinking of you!

xxxxx
 
Thnks Isoble, can't say much off to work now but you're right I need to put it down to experience and get on with things.

sorry about your friend that must have been an awful new years eve for you :(
 
Ok I'm not back on the wagon yet.

I decided that since I cheated and got out of ketosis yesterday then sod it I'm going to have a drink tonight, then I'm going to have the hangover from hell tomorrow then I'll remember never to try drinking again. I ate a garlic chicken sandwich for lunch (oh yum!) and am going to make the most of my 1 planned day off ss. Ok I'm stupid I know but it was going to be a struggle getting back into it anyway.

No idea how much I weigh today but probably more than yesterday.

My ex has agreed for me to buy him out of the house all i have to give him is £12000. There is about £70000 equity in the house so I've tried to jump at the chance beffore he changes his mind. I;ve spent the past hour trying to do something about it. Bloody building society aaargh. I've had to ring 4 different places and then tried to just make an appointment to see someone but before I can do that someone from a different branch has to call me back. This could take forever. Maybe I should just try and get a whole new mortgage instead of just seeing if that building society will be nice to me for being a loyal customer for almost 7 years. it might be quicker!

Hardly heard from mr m today (*******) hmmm well he did get what he wanted didn't he, no need to try and be nice to me now. Oh well, sod him. I'm going to go out and enjoy myself tonight and nt give him a second thought.
 
Yay Kati... you are sounding a lot more positive!!! you go out tonight and yes enjoy ur planned day off!!!

As for Mr M... who needs men like that eh??? (gen tries her best to keep her silly hand from shooting up to say i do i do :rolleyes: :rolleyes: ) anyway we will meet lovely men sooooooooooooon

re.. the house... no bother to ya and you will be soooo delighted when ya get it all sorted... been there done that hun

good luck for your kinda restart tomorrow...

love

gen xx
 
Thanks Gen :)

We definately don't need men like that and i hope you're right that we will meet someone nice and worth our attention sooooon. I need to stop accepting less thanI deserve before it'll happen though I think. I need to set my sights higher and believe I deserve more.
 
kati said:
Thanks Gen :)

We definately don't need men like that and i hope you're right that we will meet someone nice and worth our attention sooooon. I need to stop accepting less thanI deserve before it'll happen though I think. I need to set my sights higher and believe I deserve more.
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me too honey... me too!!! but at least we know this and we can deal with it accordingly :D :p

have a fab night out xxxx
 
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