FatFairNForty(ish)
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that makes three of us! I really like my man (can I really call him that?) but have a feeling I'm going to get hurt.. . or maybe that's just good old insecurity kicking in !
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well hun.. from what i've read on your thread it all seems to be going swimmingly so ya never know this just might be it!!! me thinks its a bit of insecurity setting in... try to keep it to a minimum, guard ur heart and just enjoy every bit of it!!!
love
Gen xx
FatFairNForty(ish)
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thanks girls... appreciate it 
kati
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Ok brand new day, brand new attempt at ssing. Here we go.
No idea what I weigh, head hurts, eyes sting and still feel drunk. Did I enjoy gettng in that state?was it worth it? Hell yes! Although I did some drunk texting which is never a good idea.
Mr Mechanic, as always, when he knows I'm having a night out sends me texts, just to remind me about him I'm sure and make sure I'm too busy thinking abut him to meet anyone new. Well in my druken state (was onto my 3rd glass of wine lol it doesn't take me much) I told him some truths, reminded him of how much he hurt me. His responses made me want to cry because they seemed so heartfelt and caring yet I couldn't allow myself to accept them as true. I ended up basically telling him to leave me alone cos I was drunk and didn't want that going on right then. I was out for a good night not to sit and cry. I sent one more text after that which he hasn't replied to I just wish I could remember what it said. I know I said "I really did love you but...." but what though? I cant even think what I might have possibly said. He wont reply to it now, he's just asked if I have a hangover thats it.
I met one of my neighbours last night. Funny though I can see his house from my window yet I've only ever seen him in the pub. weird. He walked me home anyway. Told me where he's working today and said if I go there I should give him a ring and he'll have a beak and take me for coffee or something. Someone living so close could be a bad thing though so should make sure of nothing more than friends
No idea what I weigh, head hurts, eyes sting and still feel drunk. Did I enjoy gettng in that state?was it worth it? Hell yes! Although I did some drunk texting which is never a good idea.
Mr Mechanic, as always, when he knows I'm having a night out sends me texts, just to remind me about him I'm sure and make sure I'm too busy thinking abut him to meet anyone new. Well in my druken state (was onto my 3rd glass of wine lol it doesn't take me much) I told him some truths, reminded him of how much he hurt me. His responses made me want to cry because they seemed so heartfelt and caring yet I couldn't allow myself to accept them as true. I ended up basically telling him to leave me alone cos I was drunk and didn't want that going on right then. I was out for a good night not to sit and cry. I sent one more text after that which he hasn't replied to I just wish I could remember what it said. I know I said "I really did love you but...." but what though? I cant even think what I might have possibly said. He wont reply to it now, he's just asked if I have a hangover thats it.
I met one of my neighbours last night. Funny though I can see his house from my window yet I've only ever seen him in the pub. weird. He walked me home anyway. Told me where he's working today and said if I go there I should give him a ring and he'll have a beak and take me for coffee or something. Someone living so close could be a bad thing though so should make sure of nothing more than friends
FatFairNForty(ish)
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Glad you had a good time last night.. don't worry about Mr Mechanic...as for the neighbour... well.... I can see why you might hesitate but there's no harm in having a coffee and seeing how you feel now is there?
kati
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Hi, I didn't go for coffee. I chickened out. what a wimp eh lol. oh well.
I'm sooo tired and grumpy today and my stomach feels al weird and grumbly. Havent touched anything i shouldnt today (as in food) so ssing going well. The hangover helped because I felt so sick I wouldn't have been able to eat anything.
Mr mechanic says the text I couldnt remember said that I dont love him anymore. He's been very quiet since. Maybe he's realised what he's done now.
I need a bath and to tidy up and to have my packs only had 1 so far.
I'm sooo tired and grumpy today and my stomach feels al weird and grumbly. Havent touched anything i shouldnt today (as in food) so ssing going well. The hangover helped because I felt so sick I wouldn't have been able to eat anything.
Mr mechanic says the text I couldnt remember said that I dont love him anymore. He's been very quiet since. Maybe he's realised what he's done now.
I need a bath and to tidy up and to have my packs only had 1 so far.
hey hun well done on ss'ing so far ur doing brill!!!
on the drunken textssssssssss....... what can i say only hell yeah girl i've been there more than once i'm ashamed to admit... well not really they bloody deserve them!!!
have to go back and have a read at what mr m did??? i'm all confused??
anyway have a lovely evening and just think by tomorrow or sunday you will be in ketosis!!!
love
gen xx
on the drunken textssssssssss....... what can i say only hell yeah girl i've been there more than once i'm ashamed to admit... well not really they bloody deserve them!!!
have to go back and have a read at what mr m did??? i'm all confused??
anyway have a lovely evening and just think by tomorrow or sunday you will be in ketosis!!!
love
gen xx
happygal
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Well done for keeping SSing!!
I havent read the other posts, so I dont know the story but the mechanic guy seems keen if he keeps texting you back.
I think you should give your neighbour a whirl. If you have only ever seen him in the pub then your not likely to bump into him if things go wrong, are you?
kati
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I still haven't cheated on the ssing wasn't even tempted. It was an ok night apart from my friends brother in law grrr I can't stand him he's so arrogant and just eww. thinks he has the right to just have a feel of my bum whenever he sees it. Well he doesn't!!! We told him he was a womaniser near the beginning of the night then he spent the rest of the night trying to tell us he wasn't while contradicting himself all the time. He's not nice. He spoilt my night anyway when he was there We separated from them (thank god) and we were all dancing so as soon as he and his brother came to dance with us I decided it was time to leave them to it. My feet hurt anyway because I was wearing those boots with the 4 inch heels. Oh and he kept telling me to cheer up grrrr I hate when people do that. He's the reason I wasn't happy anyway if he'd left us alone I would have been fine.
My friends boyfriend came over to me later on and just said "Nikki you look fantastic" bless him. I don't think he likes me really in case I lead my friend astray. Which is silly really cos if anything it's the other way around. I just give her someone to go out with to get up to whatever she does.
I wore that silk dress then decided it was faar too cold to wear shoes with it. So I had to wear the boots just to keep my legs warm. I knew my feet would hurt so was going to take some other shoe for whenthey got bad and leave them in the car but then I thought I would never bother going back to the car so left the shoes at home.
Saw mr cinema again too. He's changed his approach to asking if we can agree to only see each other and no one else. hmm. He needs to try harder if that's going to happen.
He's determined to get me drinking too. I told him I will when I've lost another 2 stone, he looked me up and down and said "nah 2 stone more and you'll be too skinny you look very nice as you are." hmm I wish I could see myself through other people's eyes. I don't think I look that good at all, but then we are always more critical of ourselves than other people aren't we
I'm so tired. Didn't get home till after 3 and had to pick the kids up at 6 am. It was soooo cccccold, still is but not as bad as in the middle of the night.
Oh and I have to go to a football match!!!!!!! My son got given 2 free tickets for 100% attendance in school last year, so I have to take him. I've never been to a football match in my life no idea where to go what to do or anything. All I know is it's going to be very very cold and traffic will be a nightmare. There were apparently 931 children got these tickets and theres a competition between them all to win the chance of doing penalty shootouts on the pitch at half time with Spike (whoever that is). Maybe mybrother in law might take him instead, he's a sunderland fan anyway (that's who's playing cant remember who its against) Anyway, if I must go, I will but dreading it.
wasn't even tempted. It was an ok night apart from my friends brother in law grrr I can't stand him he's so arrogant and just eww. thinks he has the right to just have a feel of my bum whenever he sees it. Well he doesn't!!! We told him he was a womaniser near the beginning of the night then he spent the rest of the night trying to tell us he wasn't while contradicting himself all the time. He's not nice. He spoilt my night anyway when he was there We separated from them (thank god) and we were all dancing so as soon as he and his brother came to dance with us I decided it was time to leave them to it. My feet hurt anyway because I was wearing those boots with the 4 inch heels. Oh and he kept telling me to cheer up grrrr I hate when people do that. He's the reason I wasn't happy anyway if he'd left us alone I would have been fine.My friends boyfriend came over to me later on and just said "Nikki you look fantastic" bless him. I don't think he likes me really in case I lead my friend astray. Which is silly really cos if anything it's the other way around. I just give her someone to go out with to get up to whatever she does.
I wore that silk dress then decided it was faar too cold to wear shoes with it. So I had to wear the boots just to keep my legs warm. I knew my feet would hurt so was going to take some other shoe for whenthey got bad and leave them in the car but then I thought I would never bother going back to the car so left the shoes at home.
Saw mr cinema again too. He's changed his approach to asking if we can agree to only see each other and no one else. hmm. He needs to try harder if that's going to happen.
He's determined to get me drinking too. I told him I will when I've lost another 2 stone, he looked me up and down and said "nah 2 stone more and you'll be too skinny you look very nice as you are." hmm I wish I could see myself through other people's eyes. I don't think I look that good at all, but then we are always more critical of ourselves than other people aren't we
I'm so tired. Didn't get home till after 3 and had to pick the kids up at 6 am. It was soooo cccccold, still is but not as bad as in the middle of the night.
Oh and I have to go to a football match!!!!!!! My son got given 2 free tickets for 100% attendance in school last year, so I have to take him. I've never been to a football match in my life no idea where to go what to do or anything. All I know is it's going to be very very cold and traffic will be a nightmare. There were apparently 931 children got these tickets and theres a competition between them all to win the chance of doing penalty shootouts on the pitch at half time with Spike (whoever that is). Maybe mybrother in law might take him instead, he's a sunderland fan anyway (that's who's playing cant remember who its against) Anyway, if I must go, I will but dreading it.
Hi Kati,
It does take awhile for us to see the difference in ourselves as regards the weight loss and this is why photos taken at regular times are very helpful as you have these to compare as you go.
They say it takes two months for every stone you lose for the skin to spring back...I do think there is a lot of truth in that.
Love Mini xxx
It does take awhile for us to see the difference in ourselves as regards the weight loss and this is why photos taken at regular times are very helpful as you have these to compare as you go.
They say it takes two months for every stone you lose for the skin to spring back...I do think there is a lot of truth in that.
Love Mini xxx
Isobel1965
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Sorry you had a rubbish night, hun but enjoy the footie (rather you than meeeee!)
All these men after you! What does THAT tell you, babes?
All these men after you! What does THAT tell you, babes?
kati
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2 months for every stone!!! that's ages! It makes sense though. I really do think I need to start exercising and tone up a bit then I'll feel better about myself but I know it's pointless doing too much till I'm off ss.
I went in the bath earlier and spent sometime being vain and looking in the mirror at myself in just my undies. I decided to ignore the stretch marks and everything and tried to take a less critical look at myself. And you know what, I could see I'm a lot thinner than I was. i wasn't looking for all the same old bits i dont like in the same old places and saw just what is really there (or should that be whats not there anymore) that I was missing. I don't look good with clothes on because the clothes just dont fit me. So there you go. I need to win lots of money so I can go out and buy some new clothes then I'll feel better. I did actually feel good in that dress I wore last night (apart from sore feet off the boots being too high) but it made my boobs stand out so I got a lot of stares there off people. It's what I'm used to I suppose because before I lost weight thats the only place men ever looked at me. Stll not good though. Oh and my friend spilled cider on my dress!!!!! hope it's not going to stain. I got some proper stuff for handwashing silk but don't want to be too rough incase it takes the beads off it.
Isobel the footy isn't for a couple of weeks so I might find someone else to take him yet (I hope). apparently this spike they're doing the penalties with is the black cat mascot thing. I had to ask someone what that was all about.
Hmm, all these men after me. Well theres 6 I think (ooh didnt think it was that many because it's just not going to happen with them) unless I've forgotten someone. Which is a shame because none of them are any good, well still deciding about cinema bloke but he hasn't really tried hard enough. I never actually counted them up till now. . Maybe I'm just too choosy and think I have no options just because this lot don't fit my expectations.
You could say that I'm better than I thought because of them all but I'm sure 2 of them are obsessed which isn't healthy, 32just after sex still no good (mr mech in with that) 2 of them after a relationship but one of those is too far away. So 4 out of 6 of those could just be the same with anyone else they see.
I went in the bath earlier and spent sometime being vain and looking in the mirror at myself in just my undies. I decided to ignore the stretch marks and everything and tried to take a less critical look at myself. And you know what, I could see I'm a lot thinner than I was. i wasn't looking for all the same old bits i dont like in the same old places and saw just what is really there (or should that be whats not there anymore) that I was missing. I don't look good with clothes on because the clothes just dont fit me. So there you go. I need to win lots of money so I can go out and buy some new clothes then I'll feel better. I did actually feel good in that dress I wore last night (apart from sore feet off the boots being too high) but it made my boobs stand out so I got a lot of stares there off people. It's what I'm used to I suppose because before I lost weight thats the only place men ever looked at me. Stll not good though. Oh and my friend spilled cider on my dress!!!!! hope it's not going to stain. I got some proper stuff for handwashing silk but don't want to be too rough incase it takes the beads off it.
Isobel the footy isn't for a couple of weeks so I might find someone else to take him yet (I hope). apparently this spike they're doing the penalties with is the black cat mascot thing. I had to ask someone what that was all about.
Hmm, all these men after me. Well theres 6 I think (ooh didnt think it was that many because it's just not going to happen with them) unless I've forgotten someone. Which is a shame because none of them are any good, well still deciding about cinema bloke but he hasn't really tried hard enough. I never actually counted them up till now. . Maybe I'm just too choosy and think I have no options just because this lot don't fit my expectations.
You could say that I'm better than I thought because of them all but I'm sure 2 of them are obsessed which isn't healthy, 32just after sex still no good (mr mech in with that) 2 of them after a relationship but one of those is too far away. So 4 out of 6 of those could just be the same with anyone else they see.
canireallydothis!!
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Dont worry about the scales, until you feel ready dont jump on them, 6 men after you, wow, thats good going!!!!
kati
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lol it sounds terrible when you say it like that, but its not how it looks honest
i decided to weigh myself just before there (didn't want to be too disappointed on monday) and I weighed 10 stone 12 which is not bad considering its 10 30 pm and I had 2 days of stuffing my face and getting drunk (ok only drunk one day but still counted in). Only problem is I cant remember what i was last monday. I think I was the same weight as tonight.
i decided to weigh myself just before there (didn't want to be too disappointed on monday) and I weighed 10 stone 12 which is not bad considering its 10 30 pm and I had 2 days of stuffing my face and getting drunk (ok only drunk one day but still counted in). Only problem is I cant remember what i was last monday. I think I was the same weight as tonight.
kati
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My throat is so sore today I couldn't drink anything cold, and I burnt my mouth on peppermint tea so had trouble drinking anything hot too. So I have hardly had anything to drink today.
I'm only just having my last pack too which is soggy crisps, yuk. Must make up for the lost water tomorrow and hope I can lose at least 1lb for monday
I'm only just having my last pack too which is soggy crisps, yuk. Must make up for the lost water tomorrow and hope I can lose at least 1lb for monday
canireallydothis!!
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I go with Cheb on that one, its like lemsip!! I add a crushed sweetner too!!
It doenst sound awful, I would be thrilled rofl!
It doenst sound awful, I would be thrilled rofl!
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