my diary ~ no more CD for me
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kati
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Ok here we go
Ok I'm kind
I'm intelligent
I'm patient
Been told I'm funny sometimes
friendly
generous (when I can afford to be)
openminded about a lot of things
I have healthy hair
good nails
good skin (usually)
I know I complain about it but I do have a figure a lot of people would wish they could have now
the cleavage a page 3 girl would love
eek: er is that a good thing?)
I make fantastic sandwiches lol
i cope well under pressure
er...to be continued
thanks I agree, who else could cope with 3 smelly boys all the same age. lol
Ok I'm kind
I'm intelligent
I'm patient
Been told I'm funny sometimes
friendly
generous (when I can afford to be)
openminded about a lot of things
I have healthy hair
good nails
good skin (usually)
I know I complain about it but I do have a figure a lot of people would wish they could have now
the cleavage a page 3 girl would love
eek: er is that a good thing?)I make fantastic sandwiches lol
i cope well under pressure
er...to be continued
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kati
Gold Member
Ok here we go
thanks I agree, who else could cope with 3 smelly boys all the same age. lol
Ok I'm kind
I'm intelligent
I'm patient
Been told I'm funny sometimes
friendly
generous (when I can afford to be)
openminded about a lot of things
I have healthy hair
good nails
good skin (usually)
I know I complain about it but I do have a figure a lot of people would wish they could have now
the cleavage a page 3 girl would love
I make fantastic sandwiches lol
i cope well under pressure
er...to be continued
got another one to add, apprently I'm not a slapper (thats why someone else was better than me)
and i dont pressure people (as above)
kati
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well I've been talking to mr mechanic for the past hour on here, he popped up just as I was writing my list of good tings so just as it was starting to work he kind of ruined it for the night. hence the slapper comments (oops)
He says he just can't help himself, er no he just doesn't want to help himself. actually he does want to help himself..to every woman he possibly can. He just doesn't see how hurtful what he does is. He said he got wraped up in things and couldnt get out of it. well of course he could he just had to stop what he was doing.
Like me, I can get out of this by blocking all contact with him, but do I do it? No, here's something not to add to my list... I'm an idiot and a glutton for punishment where he is concerned. I allow him to make me feel like that, i allow him to get back in touch all the time, I allow him to think he can do whatever he likes and (kind of) get away with it. Ok so we're still not having a relationship but i think that if I gave him the chance I could way too easily fall for him all over again. So, in guarding my heart (kind of) I will have to remind myself all the time of the crap and the hurt, the pain, the tears and the sleeples nights he has put me through. the good times are so easy to remember, the bad times easy to forget, but I can't let myself forget.
I cant remember what it was Isobel said to me about him. Need to scroll back through my diary (omg it was ages ago, 1st aam week) It was a good way to put it but I just cant remember what it was. ok going to look now.
He says he just can't help himself, er no he just doesn't want to help himself. actually he does want to help himself..to every woman he possibly can. He just doesn't see how hurtful what he does is. He said he got wraped up in things and couldnt get out of it. well of course he could he just had to stop what he was doing.
Like me, I can get out of this by blocking all contact with him, but do I do it? No, here's something not to add to my list... I'm an idiot and a glutton for punishment where he is concerned. I allow him to make me feel like that, i allow him to get back in touch all the time, I allow him to think he can do whatever he likes and (kind of) get away with it. Ok so we're still not having a relationship but i think that if I gave him the chance I could way too easily fall for him all over again. So, in guarding my heart (kind of) I will have to remind myself all the time of the crap and the hurt, the pain, the tears and the sleeples nights he has put me through. the good times are so easy to remember, the bad times easy to forget, but I can't let myself forget.
I cant remember what it was Isobel said to me about him. Need to scroll back through my diary (omg it was ages ago, 1st aam week) It was a good way to put it but I just cant remember what it was. ok going to look now.
kati
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Hey hun - he's your poisonous drug, remember! Intoxicating and wonderful yet fatal!
Thats it! and still so true after so long ack!
How do you get over that after so long/ will i forever feel the same way?
kati
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yes they are, and it might take me a while to get started on it. Plus I might have already forgotten some of it.
I used to keep a handwritten diary till it all started to go wrong, so I have a record of the good things but not the bad things other than whats on here. But going back to find what Isobel wrote has reminded me a lot more of how terrible he has made me feel, sooo much worse than today.
I used to keep a handwritten diary till it all started to go wrong, so I have a record of the good things but not the bad things other than whats on here. But going back to find what Isobel wrote has reminded me a lot more of how terrible he has made me feel, sooo much worse than today.
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