My LIPOTRIM JOURNEY Louloubelle

Well done Loulou both on your staggering loss and on your candour about your food issues. The first giant step with an ED is actually admitting everything's NOT okay and that there's always a danger it will rear its ugly head as a way of dealing with emotional issues. So glad you spoke up hun and virtual hugs are free on Minimins so here's a few for you from me....

:bighug::bighug::bighug::bighug:

I totally agree with the others about talking it out with someone who's qualified in that area. A problem shared is a problem halved and you'll have shared twice so....ok my maths brain ain't working at this time of the evening! Think seriously about it though hunnybun. You take care of yourself and keep cracking on...you're doing just famously xxx


x S
 
:D Thank you Shivie, much appreciated, I will get some help, and thanks for the virtual hugs too XX
 
Louloubellehoney said:
:D Thank you Shivie, much appreciated, I will get some help, and thanks for the virtual hugs too XX
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I know you must be scared to speak to someone hun... But look at it this way... I bet you were scared to start LT and to come on this forum and air your feelings at first weren't you?.... And now you feel it's a lifeline and wonder why you never did it before. That person will be there for you to trust, vent at, sulk at, cry at... Whatever you want and they will understand as you won't say anything they haven't heard before :) and given a little time they can help and you will learn how to deal with those demons. And!!!!! Just think how easy LT will be for you then!!! :) xx
 
:DAhh thank you peachpip! Yes you are right is was a bit scary at 1st comin on here and starting Lipotrim... so i`ll defo bare that in mind hun thanks again chick xxxx
peach pip said:
I know you must be scared to speak to someone hun... But look at it this way... I bet you were scared to start LT and to come on this forum and air your feelings at first weren't you?.... And now you feel it's a lifeline and wonder why you never did it before. That person will be there for you to trust, vent at, sulk at, cry at... Whatever you want and they will understand as you won't say anything they haven't heard before :) and given a little time they can help and you will learn how to deal with those demons. And!!!!! Just think how easy LT will be for you then!!! :) xx
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woohoo Lou :D ... that's Fantastic :D

I'm so proud of you for doing so well this week ~huge huggles~ x x x
 
Well these last 2 days I have been very bulimic, usually I am careful what I binge on ie protein, but the other night I succumbed to white bread and other junk... last night was mostly protein. Tonight I want too, but haven't so far binged... I have had 2 bites of cheese.... thats it. Its getting to the point where I am physically looking for what I can binge on that wont do any damage :eek:.... I am pretty chuffed with myself though tonight because I`ve been out to visit family and my daughter has had a late night (just gone to bed) But she wanted something to eat on way home, so stopped to get her a cone of chips (she loves them!) I didn't have 1 not 1..... and she left some and they went in the bin YAY!!! so I`m pretty chuffed I managed to not be tempted by them.... so thats something anyway.... I have stuck to my shakes and tried the soup poppadum, and tbh not terribly impressed wit it... so normal soup tomorrow for me. I am wondering if I can keep this up till I reach target.... need some bolstering I think... some encouragement.
On the plus side It was lovely this evening for my Bro and sis in law to tell me I`m looking good though :D... I`ve had a few compliments lately.. and I`ve taken them graciously (but deep down I don`t feel I deserve them) Sounds mad I know... Oh well.... onwards and inwards... Gotta keep ploughing on.... L xx
 
Hun I'm sorry if its none of my business... but I'm dead worried about you now... I know you think you can handle it on your own but it really doesn't sound like you can... And you will make yourself so poorly. I really think you need to talk to someone who knows how to deal with this before it makes you Ill. Your little girl needs you and the last thing you want I know is for her to tread a similar path so you need help to change your attitude and behaviour towards food so that she can learn from you how to be healthy. I'm not daylong this to have a go at you hun I'm just really worried xxx
 
Hi peachy hun,
Please don`t be so worried about me, I am making small steps to address this issue thats raised its ugly head again, please be assured I do not want this for my little girl NO WAY!!!! what parent would lets be honest. Its an on going struggle and one I will conquer with help. I know it might seem shocking to some to read what I do, but thats me I`m just being honest.... But please be assured I will get some help.
I know I have to address this :eek: L xx
 
Well I`ve got the LURGY and not feeling great. Only had 2 shakes today, might have my 3rd in a bit if I feel like it, not binged, got rid of all food that was tempting me that way... so thats a plus.... Feeling bit stronger apart from this cold virus... Will tune in again soon L xx Ps hope everyone else is doing good :)
 
Oh Noooooo you r joining me with the sickness!!! We can do this together!!!!

Girly you r on a journey with this weight loss. Because you threw up junk food before it became a dirty habit like picking your nose when you were younger ;-)

But the truth is dirty habits eventually can be broke .... So stay strong. Each binge will be a challenge to u but eventually you will say enough is enough. NO more throwing up.

As for you your glowing personality has shone through this site. You kept me on track when I was falling off so I know in my heart of hearts that YOU can overcome this ... This dirty habit.
 
Lou...keep going honey ...you can beat the demons! This site is great for just putting thoughts out there which does help/stop you doing things. Keep strong honey and perhaps whilst having these problems avoid the strong temptation foods. Your daughter doesn't actually need them ;) ...healthy food alternatives are always better. I was determind that my daughter wouldn't want the fast foods which I use to have.

Keep strong honey I hope you feel better soon x x x
 
Thanks you 2.... for encouraging words of wisdom :) much appreciated.... feeling pretty yuck today... Hope you 2 are better?
Much love... Lou xx
 
How's it going today Lou??

I'm still feeling ...delicate shall we say but better than I was :) so that's an improvement ~lol~ x x x
 
Hi Dee, Hi Tru...... Dee I will....ty for asking, hope your doing ok? Tru I am feeling a little better today, not so "snotty" lol.... Had a small revelation last night... Yes I did binge/throw up. BUT was chatting to a friend who happens to be one of my ex`s ex`s (are you following? lol) her story and mine run parallel, so she knows where I`m coming from when I moan about "Him"

To cut a long story short... he is a very unreasonable and abusive man/alternating with being ok and very charming. Definitely the type of man to mess anyone's head up shall we say. Well I haven`t been in touch with him for a fair while, and then he kinda starting texting me and stupidly I replied.... which ultimately led to him meeting me and out Daughter when I went up to Bury market last weekend. Well all this coincides with the time I started being Bulimic again.. You need to know that he was physically abusive and cruel to me too (he hit me when I was pregnant) plus other stuff... Anyway I realised last night while chatting to her what was wrong and why!!!! talk about DOH!!! moment lol. So at least now I know why i`m not feeling in control and this problem is becoming a habit.... which I need to break I know. I managed not to do it Sat night, so that shows me I can avoid it.... its a slow process of healing again.
I`ve made sure he wont be texting me again any time soon.. (gave him a piece of my mind AGAIN!) so he`s sufficiently annoyed with me to leave me alone.
Thats it thats why I`ve restarted...... simples..... now to regain back some control....:D:D L xx
 
From what i understand about eating disorders hun.... it is about control.... you are better off without this person in your life... you deserve better!!!

You can do this hun.... You CAN beat it!!! x
 
oh hun bless you, you are so brave! i understand it must be hard with your little girl but you truly do need to give him a wide birth! he sounds toxic to me hun and you dont deserve to be anywhere near that!! xxx
 
peach pip said:
oh hun bless you, you are so brave! i understand it must be hard with your little girl but you truly do need to give him a wide birth! he sounds toxic to me hun and you dont deserve to be anywhere near that!! xxx
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Couldn't agree more Peachy!
Lou, tons of love hun; you've identified the root problem babe and you have got the strength to do weed it out of your life.

xx
 
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