Dear anyone/anything remotely involving Christmas.
Please go away and stop reminding me that I cant do this. Every advert that comes on, every little reminder, every discussion about buying christmas presents. We have NO money, and no idea how we are going to do this. Every time you show me that I can just go buy a laptop from Argos, or a new bed from Tesco, or amazingly cheap party food from Iceland is just one more nail in my terrified coffin.
My three kids only have short lists, but even those lists are burgeoning with things that we cant afford. Why does everything have to be so expensive? Why does one single toy have to be £30 for a poxy thing in a box that wont be remembered in 5 years time? Santa has to come - and if that means we live on beans through the festive season, thats how its going to have to be - but this is just killing me.