Ah, I think you are the first Kiwi i have "met". I have Australians as part of my married into family, and have worked with Italians and South Africans, and have French and Burmese facebook friends but never a Kiwi. I feel all happy now, I like to have friends from different places with different experiences.
I would love to go back to Italy. One day, one day. I wanted to go to Venice, but my hubby went when he was younger and said it stinks. I think he was only about 10 at the time so I'm sure the beauty was lost on him. I may rope my sister into going someday!
I think that as you probably have some spending money saved up you should get yourself pampered now you aren't going. Go to a spa or something and relax, you deserve it after the disappointment x