Right I am BACK ON TRACK! Gave my neighbour the lurking bread and other carby stuff, and did the dreaded WI this morning. Not as horrendous as I thought, I've put on just over a stone, but I'm really surprised it's not more considering the carb whale I'd become over the last few months.
Today -
B - bacon and eggs
L - left over sossies and cabbage/leek, with a tomato salsa dribbled over
D - cheeseburger pie and cabbage. Note to self, must get some spinach!
In the true tradition of New Year, I had a good hard think about stuff last night, about how/why I fall off the wagon so regularly - and some other issues in my life. None of this will come as any surprise to any of you, I know, but sometimes it does require some serious navel gazing for the Eureka moment to happen. Obviously it goes much deeper than just not being able to resist a bread roll - it's boredom, restlessness and dependency on food and wine to solve stress and unhappiness (family, someone to love - apart from Orbit natch
- and the home situation).
I'm not stupid, I knew all this, but I'm also excellent at prevarication and avoidance, so really didn't bother to string it altogether into an articulate "Oh OK" in my brain before.
So the Action Plan commences -
Weight/health
1. I don't care how many times I've started low carb or any other eating plan before - that's in the past.
2. I know it works for me - just need to keep focused - and please feel free to really kick me up the bum when I start muttering about other woes
3. Exercise - my major problem. I am so lazy I barely stirred outside the flat these last two weeks, but a work friend is going to make me go walking with her at lunchtimes - a bit every day. I have no plans to start running marathons - but it would be quite nice to run for the bus when needed.
4. Much less grog! In fact today is Day 5 without, and hopefully I will find other ways to let off steam when work idiots get me down.
Family
1. Can't change 'em into the Waltons, so that's that. Just have to accept it and move on.
Love
1. Got no confidence to meet anyone the size I am, but that will come. Then let the online dating fun begin
Home buying
1. I love my home life - it's my sanctuary and I like to make it mine completely - but I've just got to relax and know that something in London will come up.
So, that's my plan for 2013 - which sadly sounds like the same plan I had this time last year. But never mind!